Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Frank, aka "The Man"'s LiveJournal:

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Monday, March 2nd, 2009
9:56 pm	Completely apathetic to everything (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 1st, 2009
3:08 am	So it's three in the morning mountain time and I'm fucked out of my gourd. Naturally, this means that it is time for an honest and candid discussion of my life on the vast wastes of the internet. After all, at this point no one who knows about this live journal account gives a shit about my life anyway so might as well spill my guts, eh? Fuck man, I'm pursuing a degree that I have no real interest in so that I can pursue a masters and PhD in a subject that has no real world application with a GPA that probably won't allow me to continue on this career path. At this point most likely I am majoring in unemployment and wasting money my parents straight up don't have. I am a cancer on the side of my family (not that I wasn't expecting it). I've come to realize that I will most likely be alone later in life. I have history working against me. I care about the people I went to high school with. No matter their personal opinions, I still consider them friends. However, my level of contact with any of them is essentially zero. I might as well not exist in any of their worlds and vice versa. I know this will happen again with the friends I have here in college, I've seen it happen with kids who have been abroad or what not. I'm too transient. I want to have a positive effect on as many people as I can, but it's come at the sacrifice of personal happiness and security. I just hope the trade off is worth it. I've written and deleted so much already from above, it's impossible to capture whatever the hell is going on in my brain. I don't know. No one will read this, why do I care. Do I have a past? Without firm roots a tree can not grow. At this point I have no footing. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 18th, 2009
3:05 am	Fuck it, hope is dead, dreams are dead. The older I get the more I realize that nothing ever changes despite all the best attempts. Boy meets girl, boy likes girl, girl breaks boy's heart. Repeat. Current Mood: cynical (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2008
7:04 am	Good Riddance So I am finally leaving "good old" ML to go back to Colorado, and I couldn't be happier. As much as I love sitting home by myself or going on long lonely walks, company is going to be greatly appreciated. My ties to this place have apparently all been cut. So sayonara New Jersey, may I come back to this place as little as possible. Current Mood: cynical (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 19th, 2008
9:59 pm	A Recap of the Year So the school year is over and honestly, as much as I never want camp college to end, I REALLY need this break. A school year filled with a death of a relative, a death of a schoolmate, stupid drunk freshmen putting the fraternity on probation, having to console a friend who caught his dad cheating and the subsequent divorce, a rape inside the frat house at a party (thankfully not by a brother and with no charges brought against us), and three failed classes because my mind was focused on the other issues generally are reasons to have a break. Needless to say, it was one hell of an eventful shool year and I'm probably missing some of the other shit that went down. I am so burnt out and need to just chill out and relax. I know I go to school a bajillion miles away from everyone else and so am a ghost while I'm there and don't really keep in touch with anyone at home, but I'm sending out an open invitation to just chill and reconnect, share some stories and some laughs, relaxing before we begin the second half of our college carreers. Hit me up sometime, my phone is always on. -Frank (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
1:46 pm	Getting Old Well, I'm back from spring break after ten days in the mountains skiing (and in the process was voted as having the best goggle tan out of the fifteen people on the trip). Great fun, good powder on the slopes, nothing like celebrating your twentieth birthday with six fresh inches of snow at Vail. Speaking of which, it is so fucking surreal to no longer be a teenager. Being a twenty-something just has a whole different connotation. Your supposed to be wiser, more mature, have something planned out for life. It's weird to think I've been alive for two whole fucking decades, that is a shit-ton of time. Scary really, how the older you get the more your fate seems set in stone and the less leeway you have to fuck up. One small decision at this point can mean the difference between following your dreams or working at a gas station for the rest of your life (if that's anyone's dream out there, no disrespect). Fuck man, I don't want to grow old. Current Mood: nostalgic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 4th, 2008
11:48 pm	Finally, I Realize it All Out of all the random Tuesday nights (Mountain Standard Time), I have finally realized the root of all my problems: pride. All my problems throughout my life have all revolved around pride. Why have I been so unsuccessful with relationships? Pride. I have always refused to accept what is available to me, always waned more no matter how out of my league she has been. Why am I on academic probation? I am too prideful to ever admit to needing help and too prideful to ever want to do "busy work." Pride will be the downfall of me; it has cost me friends, potential girlfriends, grades, and my potential future. I am a failure, all because of my pride. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 3rd, 2008
11:05 pm	One of the Happiest Days of My Life Nothing is better than watching the biggest upset in Super Bowl history with a bunch of Patriots fans. Fuck Yea Giants, fuck yea! Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 22nd, 2008
7:10 pm	Track practices have started, initiation for the pledges is next week, and I'm stuck looking under a microscope for around six hours a day for class with a shit ton of homework. It's the second day of the semester and already I am completely swamped and overwhelmed. Here's to looking forward to Spring Break in the mountains... Current Mood: exhausted (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 4th, 2008
1:26 pm	I want to go skiing so badly right now. I miss snow, as in real, fluffy dry snow. And wanna-be hippies and jam band music and hanging out with goofy stoned people and listening to jam band music while driving through fluffy snow on the way back from skiing with goofy stoned wanna be hippies. In short, I miss Colorado... (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 13th, 2007
3:29 pm	A girl fell through the ceiling of my room from the attic, so I am now living out of my living room. It is quite ridiculous. This semester has gone by so much quicker than 1st semester last year. This is probably the busiest I have ever been in my life. Saturday night my band is playing so we've had nonstop rehearsals for that. Sunday is a Sophomore class officer event so I've been working on that as well. Also pledge events and other fraternity events consume a lot of time. Finally, mineralogy is kicking the shit out of me. It's the first geology class I've taken in forever, super time consuming with labs, and with my potential major advisor so I can't slack off at all. It's burning me out hardxcore, I really need winter break, can't wait to be back in 'Jersey next Friday. Current Mood: busy (Comment on this)
Monday, October 29th, 2007
9:13 pm	Holy shit this world is fucked up. Rest in peace Donnie. Current Mood: numb (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 27th, 2007
4:45 pm	Run down of the first block of school: Sober nights: 0 Girls I had a thing for that hooked up with my housemate: 2 Amount of days I went to class after the first week: 4 Games of Smash Brother played: Way too many to count Nights that Ron Jeremy was on campus debating porn: 1 Nights the Polic sent a helicopter to the house to break up parties: 2 Expected grade in Physics: anywhere from a B to an A- Yea, glad to be back at school, hope every one is having as kick ass a time as I am. There is no doubt in my mind that this year will be better than last. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 11th, 2007
10:42 pm	Until We Meet Again, My Friends So it seems that once again, as summer is winding down, I have pissed off and/or annoyed one or more of my friends. I'm sorry for doing this, I don't know why I do it. I guess it stems from the fact that despite hanging out together since junior year, I still am and feel like the new kid in the group, while everyone else has been chilling since middle school. Maybe I just want to and try too hard to be accepted and it gets me into trouble; I can be a little overzealous and do stupid shit because of it. I doubt any one who this is addressed to is gonna read it, but I might as well put it out there since I doubt I'll have the oppurtunity to say it in person. If we don't see each other again until Thanksgiving or winter break or whatever, I hope you all have a good beginning to your sophomore years. Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 1st, 2007
11:18 pm	The most disgusting thing to ever happen to me: the cat flicked shit off its paw and it went in my hair... I feel so violated... Current Mood: nauseated (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 5th, 2007
3:19 pm	Despite the rain and lack of fireworks, I enjoyed my 4th, and I hope everyone else did too. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
4:46 pm	So my sister brought home a kitten (its name is "Stormer") from the shelter that she volunteers at, and we're fostering it for the next three weeks. I guess this means I'm no longer the biggest pussy in the family. Ha. Ha. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
3:00 am	It's a sad time in a person's life when they realize they will never ever have a relationship with anyone ever in their home town, when they realize no one will ever be able to look at the present and realize that I am not the same person I was in the past. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 30th, 2007
1:39 am	So I recently found out that my cousin who is two months younger than me is engaged. What the fuck? I've had one girlfriend my entire life (which lasted about a month and a half) and my cousin who is pretty much my age is engaged? The world around me seems to be moving a lot quicker than I want it to be, it seems like yesterday that people my age didn't care about the opposite gender because of cooties, and to be perfectly honest I would love to go back to that stage. Life is a lot simpler without hormones involved. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 25th, 2007
3:56 am	Saw the thrid Pirates today, it was pretty sweet until the last half hour or so when it started to drag, if the length was for plot development it would be different, but it wasn't. Whatev, can't wait for Transformers, the trailer kicked ass, and the ubergeek in me started to squeal at the preview for the Golden Compass, one of my favorite trilogies ever, hopefully they do a good job on it. Probably have a job at Kohls, but apparently it's a two week hiring process which sucks. I've been home for only a week, but it feels like forever, I miss CC so much, can't wait to live at Sigm a CHi next year, no RA's, don't need to be on the meal plan, I just hope the added freedom and independence doesn't go to my head (i.e. party too much, never getting things done) since I already screwed up second semester this year, if I have any hope for a decent grad school I really need to get ym act together next year, fucking I have three more years of school and already I've bitten myself in the ass, big surprise Frank, you really love to underachieve... (2 Comments |Comment on this)